My Dad Has Cancer

My Dad has cancer and I feel lost. We know that it is terminal and have been told to get Dad`s affairs in order but it just doesn`t seem real. Dad`s are always there to help you and answer your questions he can`t be going so soon.

My emotions are on a roller coaster, I go from crying to laughing in a matter of seconds. I actually wish I had more time to cry but with 2 kids, a husband, a full time job and Christmas around the corner I don`t have the time. I`m trying not to be a total downer, the kids don`t need to see me like that but it is freaking hard.

Dad was telling me the other night about what he is leaving for Jamie and the kids and I just about snapped! For crap sake he`s not dead yet! I`m not naive, I know his time is limited but damn it let`s get through this freaking Christmas without talking death stuff.

I`ve been asked how I`m doing with knowing this is Dad`s last Christmas and I thought what the hell are you talking about? Who says this is his last Christmas? I`m so tired of talking to people, how`s your dad?, how are you doing? how`s your mom? Well let`s think about it for a minute...................... my dad is dying, I`m hanging on by a thread, and my mom is in disaster mode (keeping everyone happy). I know people are uncomfortable and don`t know what to say and they probably really do honestly want to know but jumping jupiter shut the hell up!

I tend to be a glass half full kind of person but I am really struggling to keep it that way.

We go to the oncologist this week to get more information and realistically we will probably get more shitty news but my glass half full way will have us getting some good news about the drug I found on the Internet and everything will be just fine!

My wish for Christmas is that my family is together and happy and healthy and that I don`t cry, I`m an ugly crier!

One day at a time!

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Life is Busy!

I can`t believe it`s been 3 months since I started my `new`job. I knew that working full time was going to be busy but holy hannah it`s been crazy busy!!!!! The worst part of all is that I am loving it! The kids are doing great in school, only 2 letters home from the teacher for Travis so not that bad, and they are really enjoying the Boys and Girls club plus there is hockey for Travis and ballett for Rebecca. WOW. My job is great for the most part, I`m still learning a lot and making some crazy mistakes but the Drs, Krista and most of the patients make it a fun place to be. I do wish there were a few more hours in the day so I could have some me time but that`s ok, for now. Mom has been helping out by coming in once a week to tidy the house and get the kids laundry done so that it is a major help, I just need to work on getting suppers on the table before 7:pm, but oh well I was never a beautiful, healthy dinner type mom anyways. Anyone have any simple dinner recipes that would work for some fussy kids and a starving husband? I could use a little help in that department.

Well I am off and running, laundry to do, hospitals to visit, trailer to clean and a bed calling my name for an afternoon nap! Good night. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

JOB INTERVIEW 2

I went out and `pounded the pavement`today, I guess it was more of a light pat than an actual pounding (I only handed out 3 resumes) but it was a really good experience. I had an interview right away and it went really well, they told me that they really liked me and that I would be great at the job, and the hours are fantastic but the job is not even close to being what I want. Yesterday was a great job with not so great hours, today was not so great job with great hours! I`m very excited about what tomorrow will bring because 3 is my lucky number! Bring on interview number 3!

JOB INTERVIEW!

I had a job interview today! I`m so very excited! I`m not sure that it is the job for me, only because of the hours (monday-friday 8:30-4:30) but the job itself sounds really interesting. The 2nd round of interviews should be within the next week and I am hoping I get a call back, at least then I would know how I did in my interview.

Until I hear back I am not giving up on my June 26th deadline of finding a job. I will have a job by the 26th!

Wish me luck!

I WILL!

I WILL HAVE A JOB BY MY 37TH BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY JUNE 26TH 2010.
I WILL HAVE A JOB BY MY 37TH BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY JUNE 26TH 2010.
I WILL HAVE A JOB BY MY 37TH BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY JUNE 26TH 2010.
I WILL HAVE A JOB BY MY 37TH BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY JUNE 26TH 2010.
I WILL HAVE A JOB BY MY 37TH BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY JUNE 26TH 2010.
I WILL HAVE A JOB BY MY 37TH BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAYJUNE 26TH 2010.
I WILL HAVE A JOB BY MY 37TH BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAYJUNE 26TH 2010.

MY PERFECT JOB IS WAITING FOR ME.
MY PERFECT JOB IS WAITING FOR ME.
MY PERFECT JOB IS WAITING FOR ME.
MY PERFECT JOB IS WAITING FOR ME.
MY PERFECT JOB IS WAITING FOR ME.
MY PERFECT JOB IS WAITING FOR ME.
MY PERFECT JOB IS WAITING FOR ME.

I AM STARTING MY PERFECT ADMINISTRATION JOB ON JULY 5TH.
I AM STARTING MY PERFECT ADMINISTRATION JOB ON JULY 5TH.
I AM STARTING MY PERFECT ADMINISTRATION JOB ON JULY 5TH.
I AM STARTING MY PERFECT ADMINISTRATION JOB ON JULY 5TH.
I AM STARTING MY PERFECT ADMINISTRATION JOB ON JULY 5TH.
I AM STARTING MY PERFECT ADMINISTRATION JOB ON JULY 5TH.
I AM STARTING MY PERFECT ADMINISTRATION JOB ON JULY 5TH.

I AM WORKING MONDAY TO THURSDAY.
I AM WORKING MONDAY TO THURSDAY.
I AM WORKING MONDAY TO THURSDAY.
I AM WORKING MONDAY TO THURSDAY.
I AM WORKING MONDAY TO THURSDAY.
I AM WORKING MONDAY TO THURSDAY.
I AM WORKING MONDAY TO THURSDAY.

MY HOURS ARE 9-2.
MY HOURS ARE 9-2.
MY HOURS ARE 9-2.
MY HOURS ARE 9-2.
MY HOURS ARE 9-2.
MY HOURS ARE 9-2.
MY HOURS ARE 9-2.

I AM GOOD AT MY JOB AND IT IS GOOD TO ME.
I AM GOOD AT MY JOB AND IT IS GOOD TO ME.
I AM GOOD AT MY JOB AND IT IS GOOD TO ME.
I AM GOOD AT MY JOB AND IT IS GOOD TO ME.
I AM GOOD AT MY JOB AND IT IS GOOD TO ME.
I AM GOOD AT MY JOB AND IT IS GOOD TO ME.
I AM GOOD AT MY JOB AND IT IS GOOD TO ME!

LAW OF ATTRACTION

Here I am almost 2 months after graduation and still no job, but it`s OK!

I went for a great walk with an amazing friend the other day and she gave me a lot of things to think about. She told me a bit about The Law of Attraction, which I had to look up because I had never heard of it before! So for those of you who are like me and want to know what it is I`ll give you a quick run down as I understand it. I guess it is kind of like positive thinking and how if you think positive things, positive things will happen to you, very Karma`ish.

1. Identify and be clear about what you want.
2. Expect that the Universe/God/Spirit answers you.
3. Allow and be grateful AS IF you have already received what you want.
(I googled Law of Attraction and this is what I got)

I really do believe! My only problem right now is identifying what I want specifically. I know that I want a job in a nice, upbeat, friendly office; I know that I want to work Monday to Friday; and from there I`m sort of at a loss. More specifically I want to work Monday to Thursday 9-2 with every second Monday off, in what kind of office I have no idea. I`m not too sure how specific I need to be to get what I want and deserve so I guess I`m hoping that the rest will just happen! No I am not hoping, I know that it will happen. I will get a great job in a wonderful office with perfect hours because I want it and deserve it!

Thank-you so very much Rebecca, I really appreciate your confidence in me!

With each step I take I am moving closer to the career that I want and deserve! Thank-you!

GRADES

Medical Office Assistant Certificate Program Complete
My grades are here!!!!

Medical Terminology 92%

Word Processing 95%

Medical Office Procecdures 95%

Office Management 93%

Transcription 96%

I did it with a little help from my MOA buddies! You ladies are amazing and so freaking funny! Love you girls!

Thanks family for standing behind me and being so understanding!

Love you all!

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